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Another Hooligan
I never said anything to anyone at the range sunday ( except mooseman just before leaving ), but the past week or two has been pure hell. I started gettting aches and pains in my jaw, ear, throat etc. After a few days I worked up the courage to tell the wife. She got the ball rolling and getting me to have it checked out. Last wednesday, I go have it checked. Sure as anything, he spotted something abnormal by my tonsils. Sent me for chest xrays, ekg, bloodwork, etc. Wanted to do a biopsy on it monday past. Wasnt gonna go to the biopsy appt, and just by chance, I ran into a coworker who battling throat cancer himself. He told me to get to that appt, if only for a chance for my kids sake. So Monday I went, and Doc told wife it wasnt normal, so he took a piece of it, and a piece from the back of my tongue, as he seen it was bleeding, but it may have been from them nicking it while working. He wanted it tested to be sure. Anyways, through all of this, I been crying, etc. Its been pure hell in my head. I noticed sounds I never took notice to outside, look and notice things about my kids, etc. I guess the fear of dying and missing out on my kids made me pay attention more. Fast forward ( which really felt like an eternity of hell ) to yesterday. I get a call from the docs that everything came back negative!! I started pretty much crying to the lady on the phone. She didnt really know what to say except "aweee". So, I made an agreement that I'd quit smoking if I got good news. Well, lastnight was my last smoke. I am doing a little of the electric cigs right now, but being couped up in this crappy weather is the main reason. Just cant get out and do anything to get my mind off smoking. I also got the wife one too, so we can be there for each other. Last 2 times I quit, I did it while she still smoked. Both times, I quit about a year.
Anyways, that lonely ride home from the range sunday as my kiddo fell asleep made me really begin to think. I started to think maybe thats why we ended up at the range that day, as my future was gonna be short. I came home and just laid down from the worry n fear wearing me down. Well, since everything seems to be in my favor, I plan on making some changes in my life. Visit family and friends more often. Get out of the house so maybe I wont have so much time to think, etc. So I guess I just want to say that you'll be seeing more of me and my kid/kids at the range. Next time, I will still be a smoking quitter!! If anything, I have learned that life and GOD is great!!
Now....If I can just keep my kiddo supplied in .22 ammo. Shes already bugging me about going again. If anyone runs into any online, please let me know.
Anyways, that lonely ride home from the range sunday as my kiddo fell asleep made me really begin to think. I started to think maybe thats why we ended up at the range that day, as my future was gonna be short. I came home and just laid down from the worry n fear wearing me down. Well, since everything seems to be in my favor, I plan on making some changes in my life. Visit family and friends more often. Get out of the house so maybe I wont have so much time to think, etc. So I guess I just want to say that you'll be seeing more of me and my kid/kids at the range. Next time, I will still be a smoking quitter!! If anything, I have learned that life and GOD is great!!
Now....If I can just keep my kiddo supplied in .22 ammo. Shes already bugging me about going again. If anyone runs into any online, please let me know.